However, I am afraid I an not currently doing well on any of those. I am in the hospital for the second time in two weeks are.d I just want to get out and feel better. I have things to do other than sit here on my ass in pain.
It all started a week ago last Tuesday. I had a great day. I went to lunch with friends and we had stimulating conversation.
I went to the grocery store. I was ready for the kids when they got home. But, instead of staying on that curve of better health, I started barfing non stop. I kept at it for six hours before giving in and going to the little St.David's er they just opened in Pflugerville. I figured I would get fluid and go home. But no.... my liver enzymes were extremely high and they transported my via paddy wagon to North Austin Medical. I was there three days and improving so I went home on Friday.
By Monday I was sick again and on Tuesday I saw the GI doc for follow up. He said, "back you go... through er and then probably another check in."
So, here it is, Thursday and I'm waiting to be taken downstairs for an endoscopy. The dr. seems to think I have a 'simple' case of lupus flare in my abdomen. I'm not so sure so I asked him to take look. He will probably tell me it is irritated and to go home. I know something is up but whatever.
I am just homesick and depressed and I feel very guilty for putting my family through so much.
Stan is very depressed. His mom is deteriorating at the nursing home and he is at his wits" end.
I just think God needs to let up on us a bit. I mean WTF? God, Universe, Whatever You Are, get with the program here.
I know these are selfish things for me to say but I feel selfish just now. WTF?
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