Hi, blogspot is doing some 'improvements" to their site so I needed to check in or get erased. Ha! I need to take the time to write a post anyway. I am currently counting down the days to my return to Mayo. I hate, hate, hate to go but I need to. I think many more of the puzzle pieces are in place now and I am hoping the drs at Mayo can help me put the picture together more fully. I managed to get a monster infection and that was kind of scary since I am off of my infusion treatments. That is one thing I want to discuss with the folks at Mayo.
So, the kids are ok. Samuel is a hormonal beast and goes between his happy go lucky self and raging teen in a minute: Lord help us to help him!
Stan's mom is dying, so that is hard.
A lot going on as usual. I will write more soon. Katie
Clinging
You won't drown.
Friday, April 27, 2012
Sunday, March 4, 2012
Hallelujah
I posted on Facebook and sent out e-mails but I have to say it here: I have a little tumor!
It is a great thing because it is on my parathyroid. It COULD BE the key to most of my health issues. I do know it has been there for at least 6 years. The blood tests always showed it as a possibility but no one could find it.
On Thursday I went back to the endocrinologist for another check on the thing and the ultrasound tech found it.
I wept.
I am having it out on Tuesday. I'm counting the hours and minutes. Maybe this is my chance to get my old life back.
BUT no matter what happens, I know I am loved and I know there are always second and third chances for the children of God. We are never left in the cold to die: no matter how much it may feel that way.
Lord, I am grateful today. I pray that you are with me this week in a palpable way. Reach out to me through the hands of the surgeon and the staff that will care for me. Surround me, oh Lord, in your love and peace.
Amen.
It is a great thing because it is on my parathyroid. It COULD BE the key to most of my health issues. I do know it has been there for at least 6 years. The blood tests always showed it as a possibility but no one could find it.
On Thursday I went back to the endocrinologist for another check on the thing and the ultrasound tech found it.
I wept.
I am having it out on Tuesday. I'm counting the hours and minutes. Maybe this is my chance to get my old life back.
BUT no matter what happens, I know I am loved and I know there are always second and third chances for the children of God. We are never left in the cold to die: no matter how much it may feel that way.
Lord, I am grateful today. I pray that you are with me this week in a palpable way. Reach out to me through the hands of the surgeon and the staff that will care for me. Surround me, oh Lord, in your love and peace.
Amen.
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
quickie uppie
Hi,
I have not been writing for awhile. I have been mired in my own shit. I looked back at my last couple of entries and have to say, Sorry!
Things are not much better but I am able to move around the house today and that just has to be enough.
I decided to reach out and do some volunteer service for a friend in need. It isn't much but I need to reach out beyond myself.
I hope anyone and everyone who reads this blog is doing well.
I am grateful for:
kids, husband, dogs, cat, bird (not so much).
family, friends, friends who are family
God is not going to give up on me, no matter how I behave. But, I will seek to do better and go beyond myself. I think it is the only way out.
I have not been writing for awhile. I have been mired in my own shit. I looked back at my last couple of entries and have to say, Sorry!
Things are not much better but I am able to move around the house today and that just has to be enough.
I decided to reach out and do some volunteer service for a friend in need. It isn't much but I need to reach out beyond myself.
I hope anyone and everyone who reads this blog is doing well.
I am grateful for:
kids, husband, dogs, cat, bird (not so much).
family, friends, friends who are family
God is not going to give up on me, no matter how I behave. But, I will seek to do better and go beyond myself. I think it is the only way out.
Thursday, January 19, 2012
humility, patience and faith are all fine virtues....
However, I am afraid I an not currently doing well on any of those. I am in the hospital for the second time in two weeks are.d I just want to get out and feel better. I have things to do other than sit here on my ass in pain.
It all started a week ago last Tuesday. I had a great day. I went to lunch with friends and we had stimulating conversation.
I went to the grocery store. I was ready for the kids when they got home. But, instead of staying on that curve of better health, I started barfing non stop. I kept at it for six hours before giving in and going to the little St.David's er they just opened in Pflugerville. I figured I would get fluid and go home. But no.... my liver enzymes were extremely high and they transported my via paddy wagon to North Austin Medical. I was there three days and improving so I went home on Friday.
By Monday I was sick again and on Tuesday I saw the GI doc for follow up. He said, "back you go... through er and then probably another check in."
So, here it is, Thursday and I'm waiting to be taken downstairs for an endoscopy. The dr. seems to think I have a 'simple' case of lupus flare in my abdomen. I'm not so sure so I asked him to take look. He will probably tell me it is irritated and to go home. I know something is up but whatever.
I am just homesick and depressed and I feel very guilty for putting my family through so much.
Stan is very depressed. His mom is deteriorating at the nursing home and he is at his wits" end.
I just think God needs to let up on us a bit. I mean WTF? God, Universe, Whatever You Are, get with the program here.
I know these are selfish things for me to say but I feel selfish just now. WTF?
It all started a week ago last Tuesday. I had a great day. I went to lunch with friends and we had stimulating conversation.
I went to the grocery store. I was ready for the kids when they got home. But, instead of staying on that curve of better health, I started barfing non stop. I kept at it for six hours before giving in and going to the little St.David's er they just opened in Pflugerville. I figured I would get fluid and go home. But no.... my liver enzymes were extremely high and they transported my via paddy wagon to North Austin Medical. I was there three days and improving so I went home on Friday.
By Monday I was sick again and on Tuesday I saw the GI doc for follow up. He said, "back you go... through er and then probably another check in."
So, here it is, Thursday and I'm waiting to be taken downstairs for an endoscopy. The dr. seems to think I have a 'simple' case of lupus flare in my abdomen. I'm not so sure so I asked him to take look. He will probably tell me it is irritated and to go home. I know something is up but whatever.
I am just homesick and depressed and I feel very guilty for putting my family through so much.
Stan is very depressed. His mom is deteriorating at the nursing home and he is at his wits" end.
I just think God needs to let up on us a bit. I mean WTF? God, Universe, Whatever You Are, get with the program here.
I know these are selfish things for me to say but I feel selfish just now. WTF?
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