I am in a lot of pain. My bones and joints burn because they hurt so bad. I am exhausted beyond belief for trying to teach today. I don't know how much longer I can do this. I just want to stay drugged and asleep until it is over.
But life isn't like that, there is joy mixed in inside my bucket of pain.
Samuel and Collin are bundles of 11 year old boy joy. They love being together. They love eating from the same container of noodles. Now they are making their own juice with the new juicer. They are so happy and so sweet. Don't get me wrong, they are smelly and slightly obnoxious but I love to listen to their banter in the kitchen.
It makes me want to find a way to stop this pain. It is stealing from me. Henceforth, Pain,
YOU ARE PUT ON NOTICE. I will eradicate you by whatever means necessary. I will call the Mayo for a sooner appointment every day. I will wait impatiently for rheumatologist here in Austin and expect too much but figure he won't deliver.
Put me on that plane to Jacksonville. I'm ready to go. This pain and fatigue are on their last days. NoT ME.
