Club Mayo?

Well I just might take a bite out of the old health sandwich and go to Mayo.  I am serious about getting on with my life.  I talked to Therapist Lady yesterday and went over all my reasons for and against Mayo.  Before I was done, she said, "Are you asking my opinion?" I was. 
The answer was very clear: "Get your ass up there."  She pointed out that I have choices that others don't really have and that I should use them.  I should use everything at my disposal to get my body back on track so I can do my life.  I am a mom, a wife and a teacher... I have work to do.  And... there is so much more I want to do.  I am just in this little, mental box, thinking "what if it's a waste and it's too much money?  What if I just whine too loud?  Maybe I will be well by then..."
I DO WHINE TOO LOUD.
I think I have put off friends with all of this and that makes me sad.  Number one is that my kids are suffering. And not far behind, my husband is suffering.  He is my partner and I need to hold up my end of the deal.  And, my relationship with God is definitely in turmoil.  It is so hard to get Him on the phone these days.  I know it is a two-way, covenatal  street.  I am not working on my end.  My spirit feels flogged.

Perhaps an expensive and medically nasty week will help with that too.  I dunno.
I'll quit whining now.